July 5, 2020

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Sunday.

Woke up around 9. Had breakfast with the kids.

Started reading around almost 11.

I just can't help myself thinking about Julz. No matter how hard I try not to. I just can't. I misses him every seconds of every day.

Sometime I wonder if he is really being true to me or just playing around with my feelings. You can never tell, only time if he's really true and not playing games.

He is in fact have a great impact on my life now. He inspires me to be the best that I am today. He's my driving force. Really.

I just don't know where we'll be heading to, given the fact of our situation. But I myself knows that I wanted US to last until our dying days. I want to shower him all the love that I have, if and only if God will permit us..

Kids are back in the house to sleep the night through. Maybe for the next coming days. I am all good after all!

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