June 22, 2020

Monday.

Woke up with a heavy heart.

Too much expectation can lead to frustration and disappointments.

I hate myself for being so weak like this. I am not like this. I don't get hurt this way before. I really don't.

Went to the office early time possible. Got do many works to do. As much as I wanted not to think about Julz, I can't. Lahat na ata ng tampo ko naipon na. It is painful to think that I don't even matter to him. I get it, he's just protecting himself, not to get caught having me.

Frustrating that I was actually expecting an early morning sweet message from him, but to no avail.

Just had breakfast with the gang at the pantry, with Cris making fun out of Nancy.. Had to stay here for a while to keep myself calm and sane.

Had a lot of stuffs to do. Came 9 or so when Julz sent a message. I still feel sulking. Deeply. But I don't have the pride/ego over him. I just love the guy so much. I just felt so sad about the fact that he doesn't missed me.

Caught up with paper works at the office, time went by so fast. He was busy minding his own business too at their office. Time to go home. But before that, I got the tumbler I ordered from AraPilak. With his named engraved. Unfortunately it wasn't the way we're expecting it. but anyways.. it's ok. The headset also arrived. JBL. good quality of the sound. Ron actually wanted to buy it double the price.. But I said no. :D

Went home, rest for while then showered. Got some time to do some video while under the shower.. :D Sent it over to Julz.. I just don't know if he liked it. But i hope he does. Took me hard time doing it standing under the flowing water. Just a short clip for him. Not able to reach the climax, for I was already making sounds, that could disturb the kids just outside.. :) 

They were having some session at the barracks. Hut we kept on chatting all the way. 

Until suddenly he videocalled me.

Was caught by surprised that he wanted to have an SOP. Saw his tool. Having a hard on! Enticing really! Me wanted to give him a BJ bigtime!  

Was able to push through with 1round. With him releasing some real good loads of love juice! I came twice! That is how horny I was earlier. Haha

And then a few moments later he fell asleep, snoring at the background. 

God damn it, i so fucking love this man! So in lust and inlove with him!