June 21, 2020

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Sunday.


Father's day.

No communication since yesterday morning. I do not know how to feel or what to react knowing that this is going to be on a regular basis. Having the fact that I just the other woman I can only do is wait for him to be available for me. That hurts of course, but it is the choice I made long before we get to be serious about our relationship..

I just read/watched lectures from the review center. Half of the day just sleep through to get away with the sad thoughts of my situation.

Ordered some food online for the family, since it is Father's Day. Bought some Palabok and Lechong Kawali for lunch.

I am trying my best not to be so sad this day. Slept most of the day. I can't help myself I cried a few times. I was so disappointed, for I expected too much out of his words. I relied on what he said, that he'll call if there will be chances.. (BUT NONE!).. No time to think about me when he's home. I GOT THAT.

Sleeping early tonight. I don't want to think anymore. It just hurt so bad.

Keeping in mind the reality of my situation. I am just the other woman. 😢😢😢

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