June 19, 2020

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Friday.

The usual thing. Woke up by the messages I got from Julz.
Damn I missed him so much!
I was so busy the whole day that I missed few of his phone calls.

So toxic about work,but was able to take a nap for half an hour.

Dealing with so many tasks.

Went home after office, trying to have some rest, until some post to facebook triggered some issues with him. It was just about some throwback quotes I shared that really irked the manly ego. I don't know how to react on his outburst. But I got his point. Hence the deletion..

I don't want to make an issue of the thing of the past. I don't want him to worry about anything pertaining to anyone from my past.








We had a  a talk over the phone and he explained himself regarding the issue. It was already settled. I was informed that he'll be going home early the next day. I wasn't so happy about that idea. But the heck, it was part of the agreement.

I just can't get through it now. Sadness is real. All the fears are alive again. All the what ifs.. All that negative stuffs succumbs. I hate the idea. I just hope he gets to have some balls to communicate with me.. Even just a message or two, just to lessen the pain.

Slept with somewhat heavy heart. I know i'll be missing him so much.

At my mind, thoughts of the past relationship is haunting me. Accept it or not, it's just the same. I can't reach out because I just simply can't. Because I am the other woman. Sad life.










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