June 14, 2020

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Dearest Julius,

You're just the right amount of everything. 

You're the right amount of sweetness that gives me a sugar rush but doesn't make me sick. The right amount of alcohol that gets me tipsy but never wasted. The right amount of sun that keeps me warm but doesn't burn my skin. 

You're just the perfect amount of gravity that 
keeps this world in an orbit. 

And that, I think, is why I know for certain that this love is right. Everything just falls right into place. With you, the world is never too much and never too less. 

Sunday.

   







Here's the final day. He's about to depart. I just can't stop myself crying the whole day at my room. Thinking only about him. I know for sure this is going to be the hardest part of being in a relationship with Julius. I can't stand the long distance.. But I am willing to work things out with him.

I know how happy he was leaving Palawan, finally after all the hassles and issues of COVID19. I am half-hearted happy about that too. I am happy for him. 

But somehow my heart is aching. Knowing that he'll be with her and that I am all alone again. The things I have to endure, being the other woman. 


I slept early, no communication until I don't know when because there's no signal in the middle of the wide open seas. 

I am hoping and praying that he'll be well..


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