June 11, 2020

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Thursday.

Reported early at the office. Updating the journal while I wait for our breakfast. Trying to think of what had happened in the last couple of weeks with Julius.
Thinking.. About Julz..
Coffee first.. 

Had breakfast with the gang. All the joking around about me being in a relationship. It was a bit fun having meals with a bunch of happy people. A good way to start off your day.

My Meal Buddies
Out ulam!



Julz called. And we talked. Can't help it, there are lapses within the day that I felt so much sadness knowing for a fact that we might not see each other again, until he returned here. He'll be leaving for Manila over the weekend. I really don't know if we will meet prior his travel.


It's been raining hard this morning, and I am feeling so down. Just finished editing the TOR for our office transfer and nothing more to do. 

What kept me sane this day was the exchanges of messages with Julz. A lot of photos exchanges and some of out kinky conversations, about how we misses each other. Talking about out intimate moments together.. All about how horny we were just simply thinking about each other..

 Got some time for a video call with Julz. It lasted for an hour or so. It just made my day better. I know for a fact that this man is also into me. All the efforts and everything..

Some photo exchanges too.. I loved it when he's sending me a tongue out photo of him.. reminds me of something kinky- and I love the idea of him doing that kinky stuff to me! :)




I don't know if it is just me, but I can see sadness in his eyes in this photo. I know that he's sad about not coming home yet to his family. And it breaks my heart for him being sad. I know I can do nothing about that and I can't even make him smile or happy. AND it really breaks me. 

Reality sinking in. I am just the other woman. I can't make him wholly happy. HE's not complete without his wife. I can feel that. 






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