June 10, 2020

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Wednesday.

Not feeling so well today. 1st day of menstruation. Decided not to go to work and just simply have some rest.

Feeling so down. I know Julz will be leaving soon. Cuddle and some bonding with my girls somehow lessen the sadness..


Was able to put snake plants to vases and found a lot of old stuffs to be used as pots.

Lazy day it is. Just talked to Julz over messenger and text. Talked about almost everything. Some purely about the things we did together from the previous meet ups, overnights and everything.
  
Feeling loved by him. Thankful for all the efforts he making. He's trying to reach out also with the first born by sharing/lending some books for the latter. I just hope this is not short-lived. For I don't want to share frustrations with my kid if ever Julz and I won't work out. 

Sadness is inevitable, knowing that he's packing his things for the fast approaching trip back home. I just can't help it but cry a little. I'll be missing my better half.. My man.. My lover..

Oh well, can do nothing about that. It is bound to happen. Praying that he'll be true to his words. Will be relying on his actions.. I guess.. Just trust the process..
  

Oh by the way, he just had a haircut and it really suits him having a clean shaved face. Looks young and yummy!

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