July 14, 2020

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Tuesday.

I just don't know what's with this day that Julz was acting extra sweet and mindful.. He never kept the convo dull this day..

Moirah went out with tatay as they send me off to the office.. It was her first time to go outside the house after March quaratine.

Had to do the re-checking of files done yesterday. Turned out there were returns of different dates being mixed. Me and my moods. Fuck as shit!

I still had the swelling eyes look because of the whole day and up to night crying woes yesterday.

Today, I am more calm. Just accepted the fact that there are people who will destroy the beauty of your relationship..

I know, ours wasn't the good kind of relationship. But honest to goodness, I am happy with the fact that I am with him. For until when, I REALLY DON'T KNOW.    He promised of a lifetime commitment with me, but will just wait and see of his actions about this.

We talked about me having some vape sessions yesterday. But I had to explain that it helped me calmed myself down after the stressing stuffs yesterday. Justified. We kept on exchanging photos. I love seeing his legs. I am so inlove with his hairy legs. hahaha I don't know why, but somehow it turns me on!

He's too busy fixing their office now, spearheading the beautification and all.
They went biking later the afternoon, and of course, inuman session after wards..

He's been so active sending so many selfies, of which I really love and appreciates, bridging the gap of long distance.

He slept on me. Naguusap pa kami tungkol sa movie na Through Night and Day then suddenly no more replies. and not even answering calls..  :(

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