Run Down Memory Lane

2nd day of RNR. I am actually fearing that Julius might not be able to come here soon. Because of the travel ban into the city due to covid cases that are raising.  PACD the morning.  Didn't had lunch.  500 for spending for food. From ATP extra. 

 1st day of the 20 days without communication with Julius. Had nothing to do today. Fixed Moirah's stuff and just laylow for the day. Did not read.  Cleaned my finger and toe nails.  Browsed all the photos and videos Julius sent me.  Bringing me to the first few days we flirted. And ended in a relationship. 

 Woke up early.  Stressed due to Moirah's attitude.  Left home early for work.  Julius went back early also.  He's being sweet this time around.  I believed that he missed me somehow.  Mid day when he informed me about his re-assignment to Palawan.  Mixed emotions. I felt bad for the family he'll be leaving.  He felt sad about the urgent assignment. Caught unprepared.  I know he wants to be in Palawan, but not this soon. 

Brand new day.  Friday.  Julius went up early for the tree planting event.  I appreciate all of his efforts with keeping up with me.  Headache before lunch.  Played wwf with him.  Although there is this feeling that he's talking with someone else.. But thay was just a feeling. Not the intuition.. just a feeling.. We talked over then phone until dinner.  Oh God, despite being paranoid I know that I badly wanted this guy! I love him so huge! 

 A bit worried when I woke up and no messages yet from Julz. But yeah I remember him being away from Batangas. With his family.  Went too early at the office, Glenn sent me off earlier. Tatay went out of town to look for someone who will be going to take care of our soon to be farm.  I am still adjusting with the new computer. Eyes are hurt with the bright monitor.  Not feeling so well this morning. I know that I am having some sort of depression due to overthinking. But hell yeah I am trying to win this, fighting the mental state of begativity. I need to focus on mu readings for the bar exams. Hell I care if Julz will leave me over someone.  An hour passed noon when I got his message.  Felt relieved that he's back in Batangas.