Run Down Memory Lane

  Tuesday.   I feel so low on myself. I never thought that things like this can happen. No communications with him. I feel so unwanted.   On the lighter note, one good event coming up this weekend. A prenup shoot. For the wedding coming this September.   I made a call to him, using Nico's number. I know I am already blocked. I don't know what to do now. I am just waiting for the time he'd never talk to me.. 

  Monday.   I woke up so early.. Missing Julius. SO BAD! I was hoping to hear from him, but no luck at all! I am losing hope about us.   I have decided to fight for him. for what I believed a real relationship with him. I am wholeheartedly accepting the fact that we all commit mistakes. I still choose to love him and continue the fallacy of his true love.   I am that so stupid to keep on hoping about us.. 

 Sunday.   The whole gang went to Langogan. Was able to relax while on a road trip with the family.. Picked up honey and Nanay brought home some flowers and other plants.  Drove home. Ran fastest for my record of 90/km/hr. It rained hard hence the slow down.  Later in the afternoon, Tan picked me up. Tambay sa store nya. Talked about life and everything..   Went home around 8 and slept early... 

 Saturday.   Advance birthday celebration of Glenn. Everyone is busy at the compound. Roasted pig (head).  I just slept most of the time. Read quite a few articles.    Jaylord reached out on me.. asking me how I was. I just said hanging by. He shared some words of wisdom. Again. for the Nth time! I am blessed to have friends like him who's not judging me for whatever I commit wrong or for whatever kind of stupidity I am in.    

 Friday.   Still no communication from Julz.   Was able to talked to Jenny. The other girl. And got the information about them. It hurts.. But not that much.. More of the ego being stepped on to.. And the broken trust.   I feel sorry for the two of us. Being played around..  

Thursday.  These are what I woke up with early this morning.  Had to send him an sms and asked him to call me. He called. This is not good at all. 

Monday.  Woke up early. Sent a few messages on Julz' messenger telling him how frustrating and depressing the situation is. How I am missing him so bad.  But what a surprise got a call from him. Informing me about his situation. Their situation. The struggles he had over the passed few days with the situation.  Damn it I so missed him. Talking to him every minute of the day got me crazy with the sudden no comm situation.  Had a bunch of work at the office. Anniversary lunch. With lechooon!!